In the Air

I think I am at yet another point of self-REdiscovery. I feel like every two years I become a new person. I was just watching a movie called "Waking Life" (which i will talk about in my next post) where this woman mentioned that ur cells regenerate every 7 years so you can't stay the "same" person for too long. The possibility that, in theory, mines may regenerate every two years brings about alot of thoughts that I have no desire to confront BUT the 7 year theory does make the shift that I often feel seem very real.

The shift comes like this: I have a period of chaos; mentally, emotionally and physically. Everything is everywhere and i am VERY aware of it. But my mind can not get clear enough to fix it. Then I have a period that feels like another puberty. I am aware of who I WAS, I know what I want and do not want, but I have no idea of who I am becoming. But I am very aware that I am in fact BEcoming.

Then there is acceptance. I am what I am. It is what it is. I have no room to be afraid because I understand that it will not resolve anything. So I am open to the possibilities. I soak. I breathe. I am still. I am observant. I understand. Then there is the grown-up phase. i AM. I ooze confidence. I am not concerned about what does not concern me. I know all there is to know about the periods/phases so I walk around with life on a string.

Then chaos.

Thats what every two years have been like since I was like 10. I have grown to accept it. And at times, I welcome it. But I am beginning to wonder when I can settle in the comfort of ME. How can I expound on all that is me, if I am always evolving?

Neways, i feel it coming. I hope it is gentle with me. (apart of me disagrees with that last statement.)

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Currently Reading...

i dont think i've ever done this before, but why not...

Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia



"Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia is a 2006 memoir by American author Elizabeth Gilbert. The memoir chronicles the author's trip around the world after her divorce and what she discovered during her travels. The book remained on the New York Times Best Seller list for 187 weeks" - Wikipedia

so far this book has been a pleasure, but i've just reached "India". Ill keep you posted as i continue.



From Babylon to Timbuktu: A History of the Ancient Black Races Including the Black Hebrews



"Ralph Windsor, sets forth in fascinating detail the history, from earliest recorded times, of the black races of the Middle East and Africa. Mr. Windsor's discussion of Islamic civilization and the movement of the black Hebrews to all parts of Africa is edifying and absorbing." - africanbookstore.net

a friend of mine let me borrow this book. I've very excited because this particular book was always around during my childhood, but I never read it. Honestly, I still haven't cracked it open yet, but I plan to do so this week :) Thanx Friend.



Behold A Pale Horse



ummmm im not sure i should even mention that im reading this but...fuck it. and google it. that's it.



Mulatto America: At the Crossroads of Black and White Culture: A Social History



"While the volume examines the impact of light-skinned entertainers such as Lena Horne and Dorothy Dandridge, as well as sexy, silky-voiced crooners Nat King Cole, Sam Cooke and other black notables who used the blending of black and white to their own advantage, Mulatto America also documents the adaptation of black culture by whites a social appropriation that has given rise to modern icons like Eminem. Talty, a journalist who has written for The New York Times Magazine and the Chicago Review, delivers an intelligent and accessible analysis of race in this country with Mulatto America." - bookpage.com

I randomly bought this book today at the CPCC bookstore. The name intrigued me, so I bought it. I'll keep you posted.

Life Lessons

TRUTH.

Life.

my favorite "song" of all time [.] Numero Uno. End all, be all. and so on... lol

Healing Powers of Ayahuasca

This short film explores the powerful healing aspects of Ayahuasca - the sacred spirit medicine found throughout the Amazonian basin of South America. Ayahuasca has been used by indigenous shamans for thousands of years to heal everything from depression to cancer to chemical addictions. After premiering at the Elevate Film Festival in LA, De Vine makes its television debut on Current TV. Directed by Ciela Wynter and Chris Brickler.

Buddha

u know the title (altho we think its his name) and the image (and to some ppl this is scary or taboo for some reason)...so here's some knowledge on the man...

CLICK

"...but when i know the glass is already broken every moment w/ it is precious."

Food for Thought

womb to the tomb...

made my day.

Get It Together

Loon :-o

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Quote of the Day

"If someone points to the moon, look @ the moon. Don't worship the finger."

-Deepak

there are MANY quotes from the link i put on the previous post...but i like this one the best :)

Is Satan Real?

i cant get a "embed" link but u can watch it here:

http://abcnews.go.com/nightline/faceoff

Deepak is the homie :)