In the Air

I think I am at yet another point of self-REdiscovery. I feel like every two years I become a new person. I was just watching a movie called "Waking Life" (which i will talk about in my next post) where this woman mentioned that ur cells regenerate every 7 years so you can't stay the "same" person for too long. The possibility that, in theory, mines may regenerate every two years brings about alot of thoughts that I have no desire to confront BUT the 7 year theory does make the shift that I often feel seem very real.

The shift comes like this: I have a period of chaos; mentally, emotionally and physically. Everything is everywhere and i am VERY aware of it. But my mind can not get clear enough to fix it. Then I have a period that feels like another puberty. I am aware of who I WAS, I know what I want and do not want, but I have no idea of who I am becoming. But I am very aware that I am in fact BEcoming.

Then there is acceptance. I am what I am. It is what it is. I have no room to be afraid because I understand that it will not resolve anything. So I am open to the possibilities. I soak. I breathe. I am still. I am observant. I understand. Then there is the grown-up phase. i AM. I ooze confidence. I am not concerned about what does not concern me. I know all there is to know about the periods/phases so I walk around with life on a string.

Then chaos.

Thats what every two years have been like since I was like 10. I have grown to accept it. And at times, I welcome it. But I am beginning to wonder when I can settle in the comfort of ME. How can I expound on all that is me, if I am always evolving?

Neways, i feel it coming. I hope it is gentle with me. (apart of me disagrees with that last statement.)

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless....Wait?! This shit is REAL???

"University of Montreal researchers say that the drug metyrapone reduces the brain’s ability to re-record the negative emotions associated with painful memories. In other words, bad memories are effectively blocked from being recalled or remembered.

The team’s study challenges the theory that memories cannot be modified once they are stored in the brain.

'Metyrapone is a drug that significantly decreases the levels of cortisol, a stress hormone that is involved in memory recall,' explained lead author Marie-France Marin, a doctoral student." Read More

Precious

so i JUST got around to watching this movie. Off the cuff its alot to take in. but in that same breath i was instantly drawn in, and felt like it needed to be made. a friend of mine said he hasnt seen it becuz he heard that it was offensive to black ppl. I think that if ur "blackness" is offended by this then u are not very intouch w/ humanity, society, or history, in all of its beauty and horror.


i think Mariah did very well, even thought her appearance was brief.
o shit! its lenny kravitz!!! Mo'Nique deserve the acolades she received in my opinion. very well done. finally, Gabourey Sidibe did a very good job. i think she deserved more credit but i found that it was the supporting characters that were more entrancing to me. thats no disrespect to her becuz i think she played her role well. i also fell in love w/ the Rhonda character. idk y, but she stuck out to me.

def. worth watching.

"Life is hard. Life is short. Life is painful. Life is rich. Life is....Precious."

Faceboo and Happiness

The Facebook Data Team recently measured happiness in the United States based on these updates with a metric they call United States Gross National Happiness.

"Measuring how well-off, happy or satisfied with life the citizens of a nation are is part of the Gross National Happiness movement. This graph represents how “happy” the nation is doing from day to day, by looking at how many positive and negative words people are using when they update their status: When people are using more positive words (or fewer negative words) in their status updates than usual, that day is happier than usual!"